Sh*t or Get Off the Pot!

As I've stated in my last post, I've been doing a lot of reading lately. I started a new book, The Beck Diet Solution. Supposedly, the author helps you deal with your head issues so that you'll succeed with whatever plan you'll try..."train your brain to think like a thin person!" The book has a six week plan with a new task to accomplish each day. The first day, I wrote down all the reasons I wanted to lose weight. Yesterday, my goal was to pick two plans that I will use. One plan will be what I start with, and one will be for when I decide the first isn't working. Hmmmm...so all diets do fail!! Of course they do! Most people go back to their same habits when they reach their goal and eventually put the weight back on. I know I'll have to be conscious about what I do with my body and what I put in my mouth for the rest of my life. I eat without thinking and spend too much time in front of the computer or the TV, either as part of my job or to entertain myself. I know what I should be doing in order to feel better, but I don't. I just can't live like this anymore.

Sometimes, you just need to stop talking about things and actually do something. Well, that is exactly what I'm about to do. Even in my last post, I made excuses about why not to start a new plan. Turns out, my excuse wasn't even valid. I talked to my man the next day about eating differently and he is completely ready to do it. He said he'll eat or cook whatever I want, even those dreaded vegetables. So, we're going to try starting Sunday. Why Sunday? We both get paid by then, it's the beginning of the month, and we'll have finished the foods we're going to limit by then.

I plan to focus on my health for 100 days and see what I can accomplish. During this time, I commit to tracking all that goes in my mouth, walk daily and perform "formal exercise" at least 4 days a week, and post here daily Monday-Friday. I'd like to commit to weekend posts as well, but it seems like my net connection goes wonky almost every weekend, like this Memorial weekend where I couldn't get on since Saturday afternoon. I will be assessing and making changes as I go along, and hopefully I'll have some great successes to share by September 9th!

Wishy Washy

I've already mentioned my problems with procrastination. Well, another trait that causes me problems is my total wishy-washiness. I'm so sure washiness isn't a word, but deal! If I try to combat my procrastination by making a decision much ahead of the deadline, I'll find a way to talk myself out of that decision and decide to go a different route anyways. I mentioned not finishing the book Anna Karenina in high school. I had decided not to procrastinate and picked my book for summer reading as soon as we got the assignment that was due for the first day of class. The book hung out in my room ALL summer long until about ten days before school started. I never had problems whizzing through books before so it shouldn't be a problem, right? I just couldn't get through it. So, three days before class, I quickly found another shorter book, started the next day, and just barely finished my report in time for class. As in, I skipped lunch in order to type and print the darn thing.

Anyways, I said I was going to rejoin WW. This morning, I changed my mind and was determined to try eating a bit South Beachy first. Heck, it worked for PastaQueen! Plus, it is supposed to help for those with PCOS/insulin resistant/blah blah blah. I think that's what I've heard, and since I do have that problem that makes it hard to get this weight off, why not give it a whirl. By tonight, I'm not so sure again. My Giggleman does the cooking in the house, and he hates vegetables. I show him something green that isn't grapes, jello, or Skittles, and he runs and cowers in a corner. Seriously. He's also a bread fanatic! I told him about my little plan and he goes ok, but then I start reading off veggies that I'm not sure if he'll try, and he got all glassy-eyed. Of course, we could have different meals or I could cook for myself, but gosh, that is a big pain! So, this whole food thing is still a work in progress...who knows, tomorrow I may decide some totally different meal plan to try. The Wendy's Frosty Shake and Chips Diet sounds good right now!

Arrgh, the word wishy-washiness is now annoying me tremendously. Before I go all state spelling bee champ anal on my words, I better stop with this post for now! Tomorrow, come back to hear if I've made any new, lasting decisions.

%$@#%$#@%!!!

The title sure sounds like my last month! My Aunt Flo has come and gone THREE times for very short visits, my energy is still zapped, and I've been busy with work. On the technology front: my cell phone decided to take an unintentional swim in a glass of pop, my pedometer decided to hate any pants I tried to hook it to, and my internet connection liked to disappear whenever I wanted to post! Oh yeah, and my DF stepped on my glasses last Sunday...making me realize how blind I really am without them!

What have I accomplished in this quiet time away from the blog?

1. Thought long and hard about what goals are important for me to work towards right now
2. Participated in Fat Bridesmaid's Pedometer Challenge (although I didn't get the last week's numbers reported due to the lovely net)
   
3. Read 10 "chick lit" books, 4 health/fitness books, 1 fat acceptance book, and halfway through Anna Karenina (I feel like I'm back in high school AP English again with the last choice...never finished it then but I WILL finish it now!)
4. Working hard on my 2nd week of the WOMAN Challenge
5. Decided to join, then changed my mind, and decided again, and then changed my mind, and decided again to rejoin Weight Watchers. If my mom will go along, I'll really start this Wednesday or Thursday...if not, I'll go on my own next week.
   

I also celebrated my first wedding un-Anniversary yesterday! Yep, big sigh. And nope, I did not take that day to pick a new date on the calendar yet. It WILL be next year or it's never happening.

I see that I received my first comment while I couldn't check in here! Yay! I hope you come again. I have set a new challenge for myself starting tomorrow...you'll have to come back then to see what it's about!! It will include posting here more often!!

But for now, it is past 2 AM, and the LOUD, AWFUL snoring in the bedroom is making me lose my concentration, so I will be back later!