Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Days 44-51: Time for a Reboot

July is just really turning into an awful month for me to succeed in the health and fitness changes!  My mom was sent to the hospital after going to a regular checkup (that she had considered rescheduling) on Friday with a problem that could have been quite serious.  So, we pretty much camped out at the hospital most of the weekend and then ate crap as a family for meals.  I can feel my body is swelling up like the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man and just know the scale will read a inflated number.  With the way I feel, I know the number on the scale will seriously take the wind out of my sails.  I'll feel like crap and could give up.  I don't want to feel that way and I WILL CONTINUE DOING THE RIGHT THINGS!! I'm not strong enough to be able to handle seeing the number right now. So, I'm choosing not to remember this last week existed and will weigh in again next week for the Biggest Loser challenge.

I know, I'm a big chicken!!  But, I'm doing this for my own long-term success.  I am the best at sabotaging myself.  If I get a compliment, I have an urge to hide away.  If someone flirts with me at the gym, I start avoiding it (it's happened in the past!) If I see a big gain, I know I might binge...I don't have any junk in the house, but eating too much of the healthy food isn't a good thing either!  By avoiding the scale one week, I'm allowing my body to override my mind and continue good efforts for longer.  I have a week to clear out the July mental junk, and will be in a better, non-sabotaging head space to handle a gain or a loss by Monday.  That's my story and I'm sticking to it.


Gemfit said...

Keep in mind that whatever weight you may have put on due to crappy eating and hospital stress is temporary - it's a one-off blip on your radar screen.

Thank god for regular checkups and not rescheduling. My dad caught something at a regular checkup and I'm thankful for it everyday.

Anonymous said...

Sorry you had such a bummer month! I absolutly understand when it comes to sabotaging yourself. I am notorious for that. I am just trying not too be TOO hard on myself anymore. I think you had the right idea not weighing yourself, wait until next week. Drink LOTs of water and workout, I am sure you will see positive results!! Mind over matter...

I hope your mom is doing better.

new*me said...

sometimes I think taking a step back and giving yourself a break from the scale is a great idea.......I have been weighing once a week but have seriously considered waiting ever 2 wks or once a month, just to cut down on my stress levels.

Hang in there! You can do it!