Pain and Agony

This week has been brutal!  I've been sick all week (nausea, stomach cramps, migraines, fever, body aches, etc.) Today, I feel a little better than death warmed over, so here I am!

On Monday, I went to the chiropractor for the first time in years. There was one at the bridal fair who was doing free screenings, so I set up an appointment after seeing my nerve scan results.  He had a deal where X-rays, a full spine checkup, and whatnot would be only $10.  Can't pass up a deal!  I've been having lots of headaches, weird numbness, and sharp pains lately so it was time to find some kind of help. He told me my results were quite unusual and I'm pretty much screwed up!  I pretty much figured that out on my own :)  First, imagine the curvature of the spine in the neck area as a banana facing one way. Mine is facing the opposite way which he said most likely causes all the awful headaches that I get. When he checked out my posture, he asked if any doctor has mentioned anything about having a short leg. Ummmm, no? He pointed out my one shoulder sits up quite a bit higher than the other one. I looked in the mirror and it's clearly visible...I never realized it though! He needed a bit more time to go over the rest of the x-ray results, so he said he'd call me that night if anything else stood out. When he called, he said he found some issues in my lower back, but he believed that chiropractic care would help the issues he found. So, I'll have to set up an appointment after I check out my insurance coverage.

Also, thank you so much for all the helpful comments on my last posts! I really needed a kick!  I will definitely be going to my meeting tomorrow no matter what time it is. I've been sticking to my points (so hard to get the full amount in when my stomach doesn't want food the past few days) ever since starting meetings. Being sick has hurt me a bit in the exercise for this week, but I should see a loss!

Yes, I'm Officially a Spazz!

I made a goal for myself when I joined WW last week. I would NOT miss a week unless I'm dying. Well, I already blew it!!!! Giggleman informed me Friday night that he had to work Saturday morning. So, we'd have to attend a meeting at 6:30 AM in order for both of us to go together.  OMG, that is early for me! I used to get up that early almost every day before I changed jobs. Now, I'm spoiled by my later shift and getting to sleep in. When the alarm rang, we were still tired, so he decided to skip and I decided I'd go without him later. After bringing him to work at 8 AM, I decided to sleep for 2 more hours, then get ready to go to the 11 AM meeting. Obviously, I overslept or this paragraph would have no point! 

So, my weigh-in will have to go by my home scale...304.4. I have no idea if that is close to the WW weight or not, because I forget what my home numbers were last week. 

In other news, I went to a wedding show today with two of my sisters. While my sister was getting her hair styled for free, she spied her fiance's ex-girlfriend. She's getting married too! The ex stared my sis down and we could tell she was checking out her ring to compare who's was bigger. Ha! She then straightened up, made a prissy face, and covered her stomach. Methinks there was something she was trying to hide.  I then ran into someone I knew...well I think I know her. We had a totally normal conversation and I told her I almost didn't recognize her with short hair and glasses. I think she was someone I used to work with. After she left, I started to doubt my memory and thought maybe she was another person from the past. Oh well!

Time for my rant of the day! There was a booth for LA Weight Loss at the show. The chick there was giving her spiel to some brides that walked past about losing weight. The women she specifically targeted were all thin!!  She came up to my sister who maybe has only 10 pounds she could part with before starting to look anorexic and offering her all kinds of crap.  She totally ignored the bigger gals who were checking out her papers.  WTF?  My sister used to have body image issues...way to make her doubt herself! She asked me if I thought she should lose 20 pounds afterwards.  I noticed this same type of thing when they were at my company's health fair. If that is LA's strategy, I do not agree with it!  Also, some vendors completely ignored me and then made a huge effort to talk up my sister. Grrrrr, well they won't be getting my business!

Giggleman is getting antsy, so I'm going to have to cut this entry short. I guess I'll have to visit my fellow BLBE peeps tomorrow!

Facebook This!

Last week, my sister asked me if I had a Facebook account. When I asked why, she said she just had to show me her engagement pictures. Ummmm, why can't she just email them to me? (BTW, I am totally over not being picked and now one of my other sisters is not part of it either...the little diva changed her mind and is having one sister and one friend as her peeps. Flighty!) I am just not into these social applications. I know I'll get slammed about this, but my position has always been that MySpace is lame...so Facebook can just get added to that list. Giggleman tells me that it just has to do with my "Old Soul" attitude. Hey, I love my computers, IPods, and other gadgets just as much as the young kiddies! But, I love old movies and music and just get along better with those older than me...nothing wrong with that! Do I want to get in touch with people I used to go to school? Not so much! Am I a bit interested? Maybe!

So, I logged into Giggleman's account (yes, he has profiles on both sites and I remind him often how lame he is!) to check out her pictures and other stuff. I know he has a lot of high school friends and others from his hometown linked to him, so I thought I'd search with my school info and see what came up. I only ran across a few names that I recognized. So, unlike what my sisters and Giggleman told me, I am not the ONLY person in the world who is not on Facebook or MySpace. Neener, neener, neener!

I checked out her pictures...wow, I had a reality check! I did not think I looked smaller than I do now when I lost a ton of weight almost 3 years ago now. In one of the Diva's albums, she had pictures of me from Christmas that scared me to death!

My weight was up about 15 pounds more than now...I could have been Santa's stand-in! I really noticed the difference in my face. I need to find my other pictures to show a comparison. I'm the one in the pink on the right!

I also found a picture she posted of all my bridesmaids in their dresses. I just hope they still fit into them by this time next year! Of course, she doesn't have a picture of me in my wedding dress because she isn't in it! LOL!

In weight loss news...I've found a couple of challenges that will keep me motivated! The wonderful Angie has set up a Biggest Loser challenge that begins on Sunday. I also found a challenge on SparkPeople related to the Biggest Loser. Yay!

Off to workout before I have to get ready for work, so I'll be back with more tomorrow!

Not a Zombie!

Hey all! I'm back from the blogging dead. I didn't mean to make the absence so long...I've been working overtime at my main job, started a new venture for some extra cash, working on some medical issues, and changing my wedding date again (not my fault this time!) I also have my own functioning Internet again...YAY!!!  So, I'm back to posting and I promise to keep this up regularly.

So what is new?  On Saturday, my fiance and I joined WW together. I know I had hemmed and hawed about it for awhile.  I finally took the plunge after reading about the "Lose for Good" program. Why not lose weight for a good cause? You know what really sucks about being a female? I have been eating pretty cleanly for months now and Giggleman has been eating whatever the heck he wants, ignoring vegetables completely, and rarely working out...he weighs in 40 pounds less than the last time he stepped on a scale (I think it was February or March) and I'm a couple pounds up from when I last weighed in here...303.6. Seriously!

I enjoy being a girl...

I'll just sing that a few times and get to feeling better about that! I'm not going to complain about my messed up thyroid and PCOS. I'm just going to overcome and do more exercise. The scale is not the only indicator of success...the scale is not the only indicator of success...the scale.... 

I'm not mental!  Ha!  So anyway, as I was saying way up there, my wedding date has changed.  The pastor at my church changed, and somehow, they overbooked June 13th. Lovely! I was last, so we got the boot.  We could have went elsewhere, but I'd feel weird going to another church for just one occasion, having to deal with unpredictable weather by going outdoors, or just picking a random place that wasn't already booked.  So, we checked with our reception site for new dates...I didn't want a time in late July or August...so it is now September 19th, 2009! This will be the last time my date changes or I'm going to elope. Seriously!

I am still working on something special to add here once weekly...once I figure out the kinks!  I'll be back tomorrow with some Biggest Loser news!

I Am So Petty!

For those wondering, I have not joined WW just yet.  I am going to try it on my own for a bit longer and make a decision when out of control hormones aren't playing a part.  I'm going to keep up my gym commitment a bit longer before I change it up.

In other news...my sister is now engaged!  We knew it was coming but she didn't think it would happen until this winter.  Her fiance asked my parents officially last week and the family had to keep it quiet until he popped the question.  They had already had wedding chats and talked about colors and where to have and blah blah blah beforehand.  I think he's a good match for her in most ways (maybe a bit more controlling than I'd expect her to like), but she is a lot less crazy and actually has stuck with a job under his influence.

Anyways, I got a message from her today saying she was home sick and to call her back when I get a chance.  When I call, she asks me to be her personal attendant.  I didn't know what to say.  She is my MOH.  She is also performing a song (after putting up a fuss about which song we wanted her to do, wanting the other song we picked, then not wanting that one, and going back to the first again).  So, I'd be the go and fetch girl and make her feel like the star...a part I've played too often in her life.  I kind of thought she would choose me to do something else.  I didn't think I'd be her MOH since there were rumors about having 1 or no attendants.  Then, I found out my other sisters will both be in the wedding party.  Her MOH will be my youngest sister who just turned 16.  So, I feel like the ugly stepchild once again...I'm not good enough for her...I'm not included yet again...sigh.  I should be happy that she wants me to do anything but I guess I'm just being petty.  I know I'm being stupid, but I just can't stop crying about it. 

Arrrgh, I hate this!  All I can think about is how I feel snubbed.  It's her wedding...I should just smile and be happy for her.  I just keep thinking it's because of something I did/didn't do and because she doesn't want a blob up front.   I'm being all negative and I need to stop.  I'm going to walk to clear my head and stop thinking about this!!